Diary of Mrs 30 Something

MONDAY
Exam time for the kids and I am a very watchful mother these days. I do not have time to think about family issues in this house. I need to make sure that the kids are comfortable and have space to study. My hubby is returning back home today. I hope this spells the end of all this drama, eish.

TUESDAY
I really do not know what my husband’s issue is with our sister-in-law. I just think he is jealous. I told him that, but he said he is not and he tried to justify his actions. I know him better. I mean he was given an opportunity to be the man in her life, but he refused. So it makes sense then that she finds someone else to look after her. She is young and at a very ripe age to have babies. So what do we expect? We should let her live her life – what is his problem?

WEDNESDAY
I have just arrived in Nyanga for a ladies retreat. I have been looking forward to this for a long time. Before I left home, I told my hubby I am leaving, but he was shocked. He said he did not even know that I was going for this thing. But I had put the invitation on his bedside and I am sure I mentioned it to him the next day.
But men have selective hearing and I bet you he did not want to hear about me going out anywhere without him.

Anyway, I did not care because I had already made up my mind to go on the retreat. I needed to get away from everything. It is better to be at a church retreat with other women who will understand what I am going through. So I am here without the baby. I left my hubby with the kids for once in his life. Haaaa, thank you God for the deserved rest.

THURSDAY
I saw a whole lot of missed calls from my man this morning, Diary, kikikiki. Yup, it is his turn to be a parent for once. Every time I try and tell him the stress I had with the kids, he always says: “that’s part of life”. Well, I read his messages complaining about whinging babies, etc. I have never laughed so much. It is sad though because it is not easy being a parent whether a father or mother and we should support each other in our parenting. Well, I will sort out the mess when I get home kikiki…

FRIDAY
Does he not know that retreat means retreat from all issues including him, ah! He calls all day and now he wants to know when I am coming back and if he can meet me somewhere. Noooooooooooo, I have a car, why would I need him to meet me anywhere? I don’t know, Diary, but today I just do not feel like going back home tomorrow. The retreat was too short. I think what I really need is a holiday.

SATURDAY
Ah, I walked into the house, Diary, and I was just put off. I do not know why. Maybe it is because my menstrual cycle is close, or maybe I just do not want to be back in this house that has been full of emotion, sorrow, backbiting and just plain evil.
Unfortunately I walked into the house and my husband was the first to meet me. Shame he was so happy, but I just could not love him back.
I was cold towards him. I felt nothing. Yes, I was happy to be home, but all I could think about was that the break was too short. I do not want to hug or kiss anyone, but my kids.

What is funny is that at the ladies’ retreat we were told that we need to get home and love our husbands so that next time they are more than willing to send us to the next one. But I failed hey, Diary. I shall work it out I am sure.

SUNDAY
I went to church today on my own surprisingly. My husband is sulking so he stayed in bed – poor guy. I wanted to go to church because we women needed to give testimonies. Yup church was refreshing.